Does missing out on a roleplay make you depressed?

I ask because I was to be in a roleplay on my previous forum. To be specific, it was about a select group of humans and ponies having the ability to travel between Earth and Equestria. But shit happened IRL and I didn't have access to my laptop. As a result, I decided to just leave it, thinking I would barely get anything in.

What sickens me even more is the realization that getting even a tiny amount of posts in would have felt slightly better, but I got damn unenergetic.

Anyone suffer from a similar case?

Yeah... I'm suffering this right now in art... I love art very much but I severely lack the energy to even pick up a pencil despite my usual 'presentation' on the forum, I'm usually trying my best to just smile through the tears :/ It hurts to not be able to draw...

It feels like the creativity is bundling up inside me and it's making me feel all jittery. :/ I want to draw so bad but every time I hold a pencil, my hands shake and it makes me feel like I'm going insane!